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홍차넷
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티타임
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- 다양한 주제에 대해 자유롭게 글을 작성하는 게시판입니다.
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전체기타일상/생각꿀팁/강좌방송/연예도서/문학영화의료/건강문화/예술경제생활체육과학/기술철학/종교정치요리/음식역사여행육아/가정IT/컴퓨터음악창작게임스포츠사회오프모임
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| Date |
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| Name | 아재 |
| Subject | 마흔 직전에 발견한 인생의 평온 |
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... 홍차넷 청년회에서 보기에 마흔은 어린이에 가까울 수 있지만,20여년을 불안의 파도에서 날고 익사하기를 반복하다, 이제 서야 뭔가 마음의 평온을 찾은 듯 합니다. 쓰려는 건 뭐 대단한 걸 자랑하려는 건 결코 아니고, 그렇다고 혼자 메모장에 쓰면 작성의 동기가 크지 않고, 지금의 깨우침을 한번 더 뇌와 손가락에 새겨넣기 위함이라 보시면 됩니다. 1. 비정상행동 찾기 -> 상황 찾기 -> 발작 버튼 찾기 -> 해결책 찾기 돌이켜보면 우울함의 트리거가 되는 비정상행동이 있었습니다. - 군대 시절, 분대장 집체교육 때 교관의 지시를 잘못 이해해, 4박5일 휴가를 받을 것을, 동기가 받고, 난 왜 3박 4일 받은 휴가에 분노했는가? - 같은 팀에 있던 동료 동생이 좋은 평가를 받고, 상대적으로 고과를 받지 못해 왜 난 혼자 부들부들 했는가? 혹은 - 교환학생 갔을때 나 빼놓고 회식 자리를 가진 것에 난 왜 그렇게 우울해했는가? 왜 난 숙소에 다른 사람 초대하려고 원치도 않은 치킨을 시켰을까? - 그냥 옆자리 동료가 피곤해서 퉁명스러운 것에 왜 난 과민하게 남의 눈치를 봤는가? 어떨때는 분노에 치를 떨었고, 어떨 때는 과하게 아닌 척하며 관심을 끊은 적 또한 있었습니다. 네. 사실 이렇게 공개된 곳에서 말하긴 쪽팔린 일이기도 합니다. 누군가의 죽음, 재정적 실패 등 남들이 가진 인생의 파고는 훨씬 더 크고 치명적일 수 있으니까요. 하지만 아무렴 어떻습니까? 아니 오히려 좋습니다. 나나 남들이 다들 힘들어 할만한 이슈보다 별거 아닌 이슈인데 크게 발작하는 이슈야 말로, 내 마음을 건드리는 진정한 [발작]버튼 이니까요. 위 상황과 20대 중반의 MMPI(다면적 인성검사) 검사 결과를 종합해 내린 나만의 발작 버튼은 [과하게 남을 신경쓰며, 나를 비교한다.] 라는 점이었습니다. 그리고 그것을 벗어나기 위해 했던 선택은 2. 크게 보지 않고, 나의 인생에서 작은 부분을 성취하는 것에 집중하기 입니다. 입시 공부 이후로 계속 발목잡힌 나의 영어 실력에 우울해하지 않는 것. 오늘 하루 영어 공부 했다는 것에 만족하는 것. 몸무게가 세자리여서 우울해하지 않고, 숨이 다소 헐떡거릴 정도로 따릉이를 타고 회사에 왔다는 것에 만족하는 것. 와이프와 관계가 좋지 않은 것에 우울해하지 않고 피드백에 두려워하기 보다, 그냥 와이프가 좋아할만한 행동을 하는 것. 이루지 못한 것에 막막해하지 말고, 매일의 삶의 실천에 집중하고 만족을 느끼며 살고 있습니다. 현재 제가 다니는 회사는 흑자를 기록한 적이 없고, 언제 망할까 하루 이틀 노심초사 하고 있고, 이직하기 전 동료는 이직하지 않고 꽤 좋은 평가를 받고 있고, 다른 동료는 이런 불경기에 좋은 기업에 2차 면접에 갔습니다. 아무렴 어떻습니까? 다른 사람의 행복이 나를 흔들지 못하게, 삶의 어느 순간에는 다소 이기적이더라도 나의 하루 하루 행동에 집중하는 중입니다. 가끔은 홀로 살아가는 이런 방식이 간단한 답인데도 대체 난 왜 답을 못찾았을까? 3. 삶의 보람 찾기. 아이러니하게도 [가까운 지인에게 도움을 주고, 관계를 돈독히 쌓는 것이 삶의 지향점]이기 때문이죠. 나는 어느 부분에서 행복을 느낄까 고민을 하고 나왔던 결론 중 가장 그럴싸한 결론이 위의 지향점이었습니다. 남을 도와주고 관계를 돈독히 쌓지만, 반대로 초라한 나와 달리 잘 나가는 나를 보면 우울감에 빠지는 상황. 한 때는 초라하지 않게 실력을 쌓는 게 답이라 생각했지만, 언제든 나보다 잘난 사람은 계속 있었고, 결국 초라함을 극복 못하면 비교와 우울은 나의 하루 하루를 잠식하고 노력조차 갉아 먹더라구요. 보람과 우울을 파도처럼 넘나들다 찾은 이상적인 타협점이 [남과의 관계에서는 나의 보람에 맞게 이타적인 행동을 하고, 혼자 있는 시간 동안 자신의 삶의 작은 부분에 집중하는 것.] 인 것이지요. 4. 자신을 찾기 위한 노력 나는 어떤 상황에서 남들과 다른 이상 행동을 보이고, 충분한 원인이 없었음에도 난 왜 우울과 분노 등 이상한 감정상태를 보였는가? 상황과 행동을 이성적으로 판단하는 것도 중요한 듯 하구요. 저는 우울과 불안함이 커서 그런지 상담도 많이 받고, 심리 검사도 많이 받았습니다. 앞서 말씀드린 MMPI 검사, MBTI, 애니어그램 등 다양한 심리 검사를 받았죠. 1차로는 자신에 대한 이해를 주기에 이러한 생각들이 의미가 있다 생각합니다. (그래서 광적인 정도의 MBTI 열풍도 나쁘게 보지는 않았습니다.) 2차로는 건강한 삶의 밸런스를 위해서, 반대로 움직이려는 노력이 자신을 더욱 건강하게 만든다 봐요. 저는 INFP입니다만, 대부분의 우울과 불안함은 [혼자서 큰 그림 그리다 감정적으로 빠지며] 생기는 것들이 많아지더라구요. 나는 원래 이런 사람이니 이런 나를 인정하고 받아들이라는 메세지를 타인과 내 자신에게 강요하기 보다는, 무리가 되지 않는 선에서 반대로 움직이는 것들이 나를 좀 더 윤택하게 만들더라구요. 그래서 지금은 무리하지 않는 선에서 [타인에게 도움이 되려 하며, 작은 것부터 일단 실행부터 하고 보고, 우울의 감정을 이성적으로 생각하려 노력합니다.] ... 사실 뭐 그렇게 대단한 삶의 깨달음을 얻어서 평온이 찾아온게 아니고, 그냥 나이들고 호르몬의 변화가 생기다 보니 좋은 것일수도 있습니다. 지금은 괜찮다 말해도 다시 또 우울해질수도 있죠. 회사가 하루 아침에 나를 정리해고 하고, 체력과 멘탈이 와장창 흔들릴 수도 있죠. 그래도 다행인건 예전의 저라면 이런 상황에서 우울함에 시간을 놔버렸겠지만, 지금은 쿠팡 물류센터든 음식 배달이든 노가다든 뭐든 할 수 있는 맨탈의 건강함이 조금은 생긴듯 합니다. (아직 상황이 안 닥쳤으니 장담은 못하겠습니다만 ...) 가만히 있어도 건강하고 몸이 좋고, 강철같은 맨탈에 머리가 좋고 내가 뭐 그런건 아니지만, 이런 나를 내가 사랑해주지 않으면 누가 사랑해주겠습니까? 우울한 내 자아도 나라고 생각하고 가면 좋을 듯 합니다. 40년 정도 살아보니 적어도 남 뒤통수는 치지 않을 나쁘지 않은 사람 같으니 나라도 나를 보듬고 살겠습니다. 허허 Warning: Use of undefined constant no - assumed 'no' (this will throw an Error in a future version of PHP) in /home/redtea/html/a_skin/bbsd/view.php on line 133 Warning: Use of undefined constant no - assumed 'no' (this will throw an Error in a future version of PHP) in /home/redtea/html/a_skin/bbsd/view.php on line 146 Warning: Use of undefined constant vote - assumed 'vote' (this will throw an Error in a future version of PHP) in /home/redtea/html/a_skin/bbsd/view.php on line 161 24
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술자리에 빠지면 안절부절하고
약간 선을 넘은듯 안넘은듯 애매모호한데 이야기하지 못하고
등등
예전에는 그렇지 못한 나에게 실망했고 사회에 진출해서는 그 반대쪽으로 행세를 하였고 꽤 그럴싸했으나 속은 곪아가고 있더군요.
그래서 저도 40대가 다가오면서 그냥 나는 내 성향대로 사는게 답이라고 생각합니다
세상 바깥에 답이 없더라구요
감기몸살로 골골되고 있는데 보면서 미소를 지으면서 댓글을 답니다.
내일은 내일의 행복이 기다리... 더 보기
나이도 비슷할 듯 한데 결국 본문같은 사례는 항상 불안감을 남기더라구요
술자리에 빠지면 안절부절하고
약간 선을 넘은듯 안넘은듯 애매모호한데 이야기하지 못하고
등등
예전에는 그렇지 못한 나에게 실망했고 사회에 진출해서는 그 반대쪽으로 행세를 하였고 꽤 그럴싸했으나 속은 곪아가고 있더군요.
그래서 저도 40대가 다가오면서 그냥 나는 내 성향대로 사는게 답이라고 생각합니다
세상 바깥에 답이 없더라구요
감기몸살로 골골되고 있는데 보면서 미소를 지으면서 댓글을 답니다.
내일은 내일의 행복이 기다리... 더 보기
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나이도 비슷할 듯 한데 결국 본문같은 사례는 항상 불안감을 남기더라구요
술자리에 빠지면 안절부절하고
약간 선을 넘은듯 안넘은듯 애매모호한데 이야기하지 못하고
등등
예전에는 그렇지 못한 나에게 실망했고 사회에 진출해서는 그 반대쪽으로 행세를 하였고 꽤 그럴싸했으나 속은 곪아가고 있더군요.
그래서 저도 40대가 다가오면서 그냥 나는 내 성향대로 사는게 답이라고 생각합니다
세상 바깥에 답이 없더라구요
감기몸살로 골골되고 있는데 보면서 미소를 지으면서 댓글을 답니다.
내일은 내일의 행복이 기다리고 있을 겁니다.
나이도 비슷할 듯 한데 결국 본문같은 사례는 항상 불안감을 남기더라구요
술자리에 빠지면 안절부절하고
약간 선을 넘은듯 안넘은듯 애매모호한데 이야기하지 못하고
등등
예전에는 그렇지 못한 나에게 실망했고 사회에 진출해서는 그 반대쪽으로 행세를 하였고 꽤 그럴싸했으나 속은 곪아가고 있더군요.
그래서 저도 40대가 다가오면서 그냥 나는 내 성향대로 사는게 답이라고 생각합니다
세상 바깥에 답이 없더라구요
감기몸살로 골골되고 있는데 보면서 미소를 지으면서 댓글을 답니다.
내일은 내일의 행복이 기다리고 있을 겁니다.
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